我不想他覺得他好渣，但是我放不下的是這段感情，不是他這個人

I don't want him to think he's a jerk, but it's the relationship I can't let go of, not him

Today is his birthday, I am full of joy ready to wish him a happy birthday, only in exchange for a "thank you" I can not even open the chat box now, thank you do not know cancer is very sensitive

作為數學課代表數學考了班上倒數還挺沮喪的吧

It must be frustrating being a math class rep and having a math test

想斷掉沒必要的關係 又感覺不好

It's not nice to want to break up an unwanted relationship

為什麼我看到他和別人在一起 還是會難過

Why is it so hard for me to see him with someone else

上網課總有人問我借為什麼每次班裡投票我都選不上，我也不差啊

Online classes are always asking me why I can't vote in every class, and I'm not bad

筆記，我真的不願意拍筆記。那種不管平時關係好不好都問你借，還有那種寧可等你寫完他都不會寫一筆的，咱要點臉行嗎

Notes. I really don't want to take notes. The kind that asks you for money whether it's a good relationship or not, and the kind that would rather wait for you to finish than write, so can we have some face

真的很煩 可是我也不知道在煩什麼

It's really annoying, but I don't know what it is

小心翼翼地當個靠譜的好貨微商，可是大家都不理我，也沒有新的好友

Carefully when a reliable goods wechat business, but everyone ignored me, there is no new friends

大概是慢慢對一個人失去信心+在自己的生活裡又是一個行動矮子。畢竟我們不能隨心所欲

I guess I'm losing faith in someone and I'm just another action dwarf in my own life. After all, we can't do what we want

借錢的時候叫姐姐叫哥哥 還錢的時候各種不記得各種明天

When you borrow money, ask your sister to call your brother. When you pay back the money, you don't remember all the tomorrows

I'm just trying to keep track of my day-to-day life, not make fun of it